Itinerary

The suppression check yesterday went pretty well. The nurse had a hard time finding my left ovary - she was pointing the wand at a fuzzy mass and thinking it was my ovary. I was like, that doesn't look like my ovary. She said, "it doesn't? hmm....". Then she found my ovary behind that dark fuzzy mass. She didn't seem too concerned about it - it wasn't the fibroid b/c it was nowhere near my uterus but it also wasn't attached to my ovary (or so it seemed). I asked if the mass could have been an endometioma and she said it could have...(the nurses at CCRM said I might have a small endometrioma near that ovary in the past). Well, this didn't look small, but if no one else is overly worried about it...I guess I'll just wait until we get to CO and have them look at it on their better u/s machines. What do I know? DH was like, you know how they say that your bowels really travel around the ovaries a lot- well, maybe that was poop? Lol....hey, maybe it was!

Anyway, I am fully suppressed. I had a bunch of antral follies but they don't count them at my old RE's office, so I have no idea what to expect this cycle. I got the call yesterday that I can start stims ASAP, but decided to do my first shot this morning. So, I started saizen and menopur. But I freaked out yesterday because noone has told me what to do with my lupron. Last cycle I cut down from 10 units to 5 around the time I started stims. This isn't on my schedule, nor has anyone told me to do anything. So I called the nurseline at 11 o'clock yesterday morning. No reply. I called back at about 4 NY time, never got the call back. So I stayed on the 10 units. I called again this morning and went through the phone service, who said a nurse would call me. I dug around in the office and finally found last cycle's chart and it said I cut down to 5 units the day I start stims. Well, finally a nurse called me back and said that Dr. Sch has been keeping all of his patients on 10 units now for the whole cycle. I said OK but I am a paitent of Dr. G....she goes "oh, um, okay, well then that does make a difference. You should probably cut down to 5 then today.... Good luck. Bye". Um, eeek. So, since we did it last time and I did alright and we seem to be doing the same thing, I'm just gonna cut down to 5. I'd hate to be oversuppressed. But, this wasn't the most confidence building conversation. What do you guys think?

Our Valentine's Day was nice. It was quiet and unlike most others we've ever had just because I had really bad AF cramps and am a cranky lupron-crazed individual lately. But, we took it easy, had a beautiful dinner that I cooked at home (lobster tails, asparagus, potatoes and flourless choc cake with chocolate mousse), watched a movie, and just enjoyed each other's company. I can't wait until we are past this stage in our lives though...over dinner, we were talking about when we first lived together in Milton, WA when he returned from Iraq and we first got our puppy, Harley. We were laughing and then got reminiscent and Brett called it our "innocence". It was so true. It made me think of our wedding pics, where we look young (even though it was only 3 years ago), light, and just full of smiles....and I miss that "us". I asked him when he thought we'd ever be able to get that back (or even if we would) and he said after our first child is born - and, of course, I had to say - or we've decided that we are done with this because we've had too many failures and have decided to be DINKs (double income no kids) and move to a fun city where there are other DINKS to enjoy life with and go on vacations with. His response was: yup, or that. I guess we'll see.

In the meantime. I got my flight for Wednesday night (leave here at 6, get there around 11:30 PM). I did a hotel/car deal on hotwire and saved a really good amount of money...so we are set to go. I really hope we get lots of good eggs, make beautiful embryos, who are tested to be normal, and, finally, months from now, have a successful transfer.