Sunday, November 13, 2011
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Friday, October 14, 2011
Besides that, I have absolutely nothing to say...too tired to really be coherent. I just took a pic on Sunday so I will post that one soon...to give you an idea. I haven't gained as much as I wanted to...but I am glad I didn't listen to my doctor (the one I changed to on recommendation of a friend) and I front loaded the weight gain. This particular doctor told me not to worry about gaining and that it all comes on quickly at the end. I didn't believe him so I purposely gained weight faster...he didn't seem happy...but here I am, almost 36 weeks, and barely up 38 lbs. And, I haven't gained in about 3 weeks...I just can't eat enough with my stomach all squished up. So, I am trying to keep eating and my new (the OB that delivered Teagan) seems to think I am doing fine....but I am starting to look funny with this HUGE belly and not so big anywhere else...I think I am actually getting skinnier in places and I don't think it is good for the babies or for breastfeeding eventually....
So...on that note, off to get breakfast ready. I will try to update soon...
Sunday, September 25, 2011
And...as promised, nursery pics for our soon to arrive little miracles:
Friday, September 9, 2011
Baby A...who had graciously turned head down (and is likely to stay that way since room is running out...but she could surprise us!). She doesn't look like her big sis, which is great! I wanted them all to look a little different and so far, they do! With baby B looking more like T but A having her own adorable look! She is estimated to be about 3 lbs.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
This probably seems petty but here is the truth. Everyone wants to be there when the babies get home, right? So, you have the entire family there, ooohing and aaaahing and helping out, then your hubby goes back to work, everyone leaves and you are left with babies that aren't on a schedule, all alone, with, hopefully, a few frozen casseroles left in the freezer from the church family. Panic hits. I have not experienced this since we put our foot down last time too...but I have friends who have had really really hard times.
The other issues is...I am planning to breastfeed twins. If you've ever had even one baby home in the first few weeks breastfeeding, you know that modesty is out the window. You are figuring things out and the babies' feeding comes FIRST. Now double that. There is no hooter hider on earth that is going to help me stay modest while feeding 2. So, I just have to whip them out and feed...maybe after they get on a schedule (oh, about 2 weeks...?), I will be able to get away to another room and feed while company entertains Teagan...but there it is....another reason for us to have 2 weeks as a family.
Crazy that this has been bothering me so much, maybe. I expect T to do well for the transition but I don't expect her to be a "little mommy" as a lot of people have said. She is going to be a precocious little beautiful toddler who wants mommy's lap and attention and will have to adjust to having 2 new siblings in the house. But, I want her to feel and react however is natural to her and still feel loved and appreciated. It is going to be a balancing act.
SO...that is what I've been up to. I haven't really wanted to put it into words b/c I was worried that it would seem like I was ungrateful. I am not. I am extremely excited and feel incredibly blessed that we have two little ones on the way and that we have such wonderful family and friends who want to help us out. I can't even express that in words. Teagan will be a big sis and will have family to complain to about her parents and life, even if we aren't around...which is beautiful to me. There will be fights but I am also looking forward to three little girls, 2 boxers, 1 chihuahua and mom and dad crammed into a messy bed on Sunday morning!
Besides that, I haven't documented that I have changed OB's once and then back to my old one (the one that missed T's birth even though I was induced) b/c the practice I changed to acted like I was asking for a home birth when I asked if we could try a vaginal birth if they presented right (well, that was one of the reasons). I haven't documented that they are getting stronger and stronger and kicking me constantly...and strongly! I can actually see the movements and, once in a while, I get a big tushy sticking out and have to gently push it back in, for which I get kicked! I also haven't documented that Teagan has been adorable and pulls my shirt up, says "babies!!!" and then kisses my belly button...even though, I know she doesn't understand it in reality AT ALL...it is adorable and was totally unexpected. So, I've missed a lot but, thus far, its been beautiful and relatively easy. I am getting huge. Today is 30w4d and I have a growth ultrasound and OB appt, but I am guessing (and hoping and praying) that all is well. I will update soon:-)
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Oh...and woke up with pain in the belly and by this afternoon, you guessed it...stretchmark! Ugh. I got away without them from having Teagan but I knew I was in trouble when I found out we were pregnant with two. Such is life...we get a beautiful gift in having 2 more girls...but I have to pay just a tiny bit for it in probably never wearing a 2 piece again...not too bad of a bargain, I guess.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Monday, August 8, 2011
Sunday, August 7, 2011
A couple of weeks ago I had my first one hour GD test and failed with a whopping 185! I was told I'd likely have it because diabetes runs in both sides of my family and I am carrying fraternal twins, which significantly increases the likelihood...so I was ready. I took the 3 hour test last friday and was sure I failed. Everyone I've ever heard of who passes that feels awful and sick by the end of it. I felt fine! Absolutely fine. Drank the icky stuff, sat there and read the kindle in between each blood draw. On Monday I bugged the OB's office for the results but they didn't get them....then Tuesday, whew! I passed! With flying colors! My blood glucose levels were on the low side! yay!!!!! I was dreading the added worry, the diet (in conjunction with my celiac diet, eek), and the increased chance of a csection, which I don't need with the doc already telling me it is likely. Ugh.
Anyway, that is about the only stuff I have to update on for now. Terribly boring, I know. I will try to post later this week with some pics and stuff. My HUGE belly and my beautiful girl and maybe a few puppy pics....
Sunday, July 17, 2011
And, for good measure, a pic of my beautiful little girl in her bathing suit, which she loves. It is hard to find appropriate little girl clothes (according to me, I realize this is a very subjective comment), but everything is very suggestive, even for baby girls, so this is a cute one piece we found that she loves...
And, a quick picture of our big, male boxer leaping in the spray from our froggy pool, moments before he landed on it and killed it:
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
I love that kid's smile! check out those pearly whites! Okay, so she was making a whacky smile, but it gives you an idea of her personality:-)
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
I am doing great. 16 weeks with twins and I look like I did when I was 30 weeks pregnant with Teagan. Its hilarious. Not only do you get bigger on your second pregnancy, but its twins! But, I've been doing really well so far. Nothing new at all to report. I can't believe I have nothing really to say. I have another 2 weeks until my anatomy scan, which I am dying for. The NT scan ultrasound tech was willing to guess at gender and it looks like Baby A is definitely a girl and Baby B is maybe 60% girl, its hard to tell so early...they say that if you see a penis, you are having a boy but if you don't see one that early, you just don't know what you are having (genitals aren't fully formed yet at that stage, so you can't be sure). So, we are guessing 2 girls but really not sure...deep down, I am absolutely unsure...and dying to find out.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Friday morning I woke up at 3 am and had to pee something awful...and couldn't. Not for the life of me. I know this isn't entirely unusual in pregnancy with women who have a tipped uterus since I had a little bit of this with my daughter...at about 18 weeks. So, I sat there and wiggled around, leaned forward, leaned back, etc.....nothing. Okay, back to bed. Maybe next time. I tried repeatedly until 6 am when I got the faintest of half hearted trickles. And then nothing again. So, knowing this is likely the same thing I had before, when the uterus is stretched enough that it is taking over the entire pelvic cavity (happens sooner with twins...about 11 weeks I guess), and if you have tipped uterus, it gets kind of stuck there for a while, pushes on your bladder and...um...closes your urethra. So, Brett went to work, I went to the pool to see if swimming can make my uterus move. It didn't. Nothing...then a slight trickle when I tried as hard as I could. Around noon, I was desperate and called my OB who was closed but I did the emergency line and he called back. He told me to try a few positions but that the trickle I am experiencing is not the stuff from my bladder but rather overflow b/c my bladder is totally full. He suggested I try to get on my knees and chest for a few minutes and then try again. If that doesn't work, its off to urgent care for catherization. He said to avoid the actual emergency room because they will leave me waiting too long and this is getting critical. At 3 pm (12 hours after it started) I finally made it to urgent care, totally mortified, and had to be catherized. They were amazed at how much my bladder held. So, it was emptied. RELIEF. Then I was told that in order not to have to go back to urgent care, I have to pee every 2 hours at least...even setting a timer at night. Apparently, if I sleep through one needed pee break, my bladder might overfill and get stuck again....so the weekend went by. I was mostly able to pee (if I leaned forward and lifted up my belly) and sometimes, not so much. But, I got through it...and I am exhausted. So so tired. I was also scared b/c I did the google search and heard that most cases eventually correct themselves but some extreme cases can get stuck and can cause miscarriage. So, first thing this morning, I made an appointment with the OB to discuss. She said that there is no way this will cause miscarriage, my babies are fine, but she is glad I came in. We talked...this should be over by the end of the week, hopefully and then she gave me a quick ultrasound, which was incredible of her. She knew I was worried. The babies were doing great. They were stacked on top of each other like in bunk beds and baby a on the bottom was rocking out and going nuts in there and baby b was snoozing away. It was wonderful. So, now no worries about miscarriage and I can handle the discomfort until it gets better...but what a weekend!
Besides that, Easter was great...though filled with some worry. Teagan had her first family egg hunt...the church one is next weekend. I have some great pictures but am too lazy to upload today:-) I will do it this week though b/c she is a sight to see in her cute little easter dress!
Friday, April 8, 2011
Monday, April 4, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Unfortunately, I talked to a friend who has 11 month old twins and she scared me to death. She said Teagan will never be just Teagan again, now she will be just the twins' sister. She said that everyone will look past her to see the twins and ignore her. I was close to crying. Then she told me I will be so sick in the first trimester that I won't be able to chase after Teagan and then I'll be so tired in the third trimester that again I won't be able to chase after Teagan. I tried to get off the phone...why say such things now? So, I am trying to be rational and excited. I know this isn't easy but we've been blessed! 2 babies!!!!
Anyway, still early and lots of hurdles but there it is...
Thursday, March 10, 2011
My first ultrasound will be in a little over 2 weeks, so I'll update on this then. In the meantime, hopefully I get a few minutes to post some cute pics of my little girl or tell some cute stories b/c she is just a riot lately, but we'll see. Things are crazy here.
Monday, March 7, 2011
More later....its been a hectic weekend and crazy day...and not in a good way (though this is the good news, so its bad things are being tempered by good news, I guess). Ugh.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
I wrote about Teagan's vomiting, I think. Tuesday she was getting better but then diarrhea started again (I say again, b/c we had 8 days straight of this prior to leaving for CO), and she's had a bad belly since then....then Thursday night, Brett got violently ill. I got mildly ill...but since I was the best off, I had to take care of everything in the house (which is fine, I'm glad someone was relatively ok) though I stressed to death all day that I had super-early morning sickness that then mysteriously disappeared yesterday (um, it was the stomach flu, silly, I just didn't get it THAT bad, Thank God). So, all day Friday was shot, and we had to cancel Teagan's first birthday party which was planned for yesterday, I was so bummed. We are rescheduling it for next week...but I think she's going to e 13 months by the time she has her first party, lol, not that she knows the difference. But, with all this overshadowing things, we haven't had the chance to really feel excited and happy yet. Though, I feel content. I think today everyone is on the upswing and I have my beta first thing tomorrow....so, things are looking up!
I can't believe my little one is going to have a sibling (or two!). I know we still have A LOT of hurdles to get over...but, for now, I'm going to feel good about this!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
We had a great trip. Teagan did great on the flights, the hotel was nice, transfer went well, it was incredibly hard to stay on bedrest and let Brett do everything, and tell little baby girl that mommy is stuck in bed (but what a joy, right?). Anyway, it went. We stayed an extra day, bought some cute baby clothes for T at the local, big, beautiful, expensive mall and headed out yesterday. Overnight, Teagan came up with something with an incredibly bad night of vomiting. And, again this morning, but so far today, she has finally been able to keep down a couple of rice crackers and a couple of sips of water. That's it for now. Poor baby girl is hungry and not feeling great, though when her little belly is empty she is still laughing and walking and chasing the dogs, but then she gets hungry and I have to be careful how much she eats and drinks until I know she can keep something down. Its hard!
Okay, on to the 2WW stuff. I thought it would be easier and I know it is, but it still sucks. I'm not nearly as over the top as I've been in the past. But, I'm stressed. I won't be absolutely crushed if this didn't work but I always thought that if I had just one successful IVF and pregnancy that if I chose to do it again, I'd be so confident of it working that I would just go about my business. Not so. I'm almost convinced it didn't work. I mean, I still have that almost 70% chance of success, right? No more, no less. That's good odds. But, I don't know...maybe all of my old fears are haunting me. Either way, in reality, I have my miracle and she is so amazing, so I'm okay. I'm just trying to not get all wrapped up in this drama again but it is hard.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
I am still going ahead with the transfer. For now, my doctor wants me to start calcium and vitamin D. She is sending me to a digestive doc to discuss the gluten issues and a nutritionist to make sure I am eating well (I am a pretty healthy eater, but what do I know?). I also don't know if my bones are always like this or if this is actual bone LOSS, as they suggest, since it is my only test, we don't know if I've had better bones or not. Its kind of a weird test and a weird result. Nonetheless, here I am. Part of the reason I am writing this is so that any of the rest of you who have done multiple IVFs and any of you that do depot lupron, and/or have thyroid issues (there are lots of you!) start calcium and vitamin D asap. They didn't tell me to do this and I wish they had. In some way, its probably a good thing that I broke a toe...at least now I can try to prevent my bones from getting worse...though I'm still dumbfounded.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
On that note, I started lupron a week ago and am waiting for AF. I am not sure how much of this cycle I will be documenting on here b/c to be honest, I'm kind of pretending its not happening. I am unlikely to even post whether it is a BFN or a BFP right away b/c the reality of it all is freaking me out. Also, I have a lot of friends and family that read this blog and, this time, I may not want everyone to know if we are successful or not right away (after all, I don't get to ask them every time after they had "marital relations" if they are pregnant, so why is my reproductive life such a spectacle? I know, because I made it one, I get it...I'm just all of a sudden pissy about this). Instead, I am concentrating on my daughter's one year birthday...which is just weeks away!!!
I will post more at another time. Hoepfully some cute pics. For now, my little one is asleep with some baby tylenol and antibiotics in her little system since she has a really bad and very painful ear infection. I am exhausted from staying up last night with her and cranky from a lupron headache...so I am off to hit the couch and cuddle up with hubby.
Monday, January 17, 2011
I'll have to let that video speak for itself! She is actually a toddler now and is letting go of everything to walk. Her choice...though she was doing it so much I made Brett get up and get the camera at which point, you get this video. It kinda scares me though b/c I want to keep her on highly padded carpet since she has no qualms about standing up, letting go, walking a few steps and then falling wherever she is. Padding is nice:-)
This one is cute. She is trying to play peek a boo with our dog, Harley, who is totally missing the point.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
The transfer date is February 25. Literally, 2 days after T's birthday! I am definitely going to do the PIO - I would just be too scared to do the supps, even though they are thought to be "easier", I seem to trust the PIO better. I am also going to transfer two. eek. My RE suggests 2 because we transferred 2 to have Teagan and he thinks with my history, it is smart. We agree. However, he said to get used to the idea of possibly having twins. Ugh. So, that would be 3 in diapers. Scary to say the least. And, no, we won't have a nanny nor lots of help, and I will insist on breastfeeding exclusively for as long as it is possible (it is just my way, unless I have a nervous breakdown or someone talks some sense into me, probably). So, I'm kind of scared of this, but not nearly as scared as I am of not getting pregnant from this transfer and all the old self-doubt starting up again. We can't afford another transfer for a LOOOONG time, so this is it and I hope it works. If it works too good (and you all know that once I transfer 2, I'll pray for both to stick around, I can't seem to help myself...and if only one implants, I'll honestly cry tears of sadness, so I'm probably just insane). In any event, I would look forward to being pregnant again and possibly being able to give my baby a sibling...but we don't know if my last pregnancy was a fluke or if I can really do this thing:-) But, all around, no complaints....we have an absolutely perfect daughter.
On the self-doubt issue, we are likely to push off T's birthday celebration to March 5 th, I think, so we can have more family around, but how scary is it that I will know that same weekend whether the transfer worked? I think it is doable because I will always be happy to celebrate my daughter's birthday no matter what the result is...my only thought is that houseguests are probably a bad idea...b/c I'll be a ball of stress and possibly, sadness, you know? So, I was hoping to celebrate it earlier, like the Saturday before transfer, but it seems that the later week works much better, so there it is.
I'll have to write more at a future time. For now, I am nervous and excited and stressed all at once. The holidays were great but pretty stressful. Teagan got a lot of beautiful gifts and loved all of them...and the tree! She couldn't keep her eyes off the tree. She is also starting to walk....in fact, just before Christmas, she let go of the coffee table and took about 3-4 steps to me!!! She has been doing that pretty regularly on her own, so she's been in constant motion. Its incredibly fun but exhausting:-) More later...