Friday, January 2, 2009

Argh. Normal? WTF?

Okay, so we got the results back on the chromosomal analysis of the fetus and it came back "female, normal". Argh. So either we had a female who had no (that they could detect on this test...)abnormal chromosomes or they tested a blood clot of mine and (as I suspected...) I am normal. So, completely inconclusive. So so frustrating.

Now, I had a major freakout about something like this happening a few weeks ago...but it went something like getting a test result that said "male, normal" because then we would KNOW it wasn't my tissue and we actually had a normal fetus. The doctor warned me that if it came back "female, normal", we wouldn't actually know anything at all b/c there is a good likelihood that it was my tissue being tested by mistake. However, a fellow IFer has had 2 prior miscarriages from her 2 prior IVF's and they both came back normal...then she did PGD (a form of genetic testing prior to transfer) and she is now past her first trimester with a singleton. I've also read an article that said that if it comes back "normal" it doesn't really mean that it was "normal" - just that the test that they use to test fetuses counts chromosomes, so it was normal in that it had the right number of chromosomes, but not that they were arranged properly or working properly. So, still no answers.

I know some people think I am in a decent position - I get a lot of eggs, they fertilize great, and we get a good number of very nice embryos. I've now gotten pregnant 3 times (1 natural chemical, 1 ectopic, 1 m/c at 8.5 weeks) so we know I can get pregnant. No doctor has found a single thing really wrong with me in the fertility department (well, barring the hashimoto's thyroidosis), so I should be happy. However, I am really of the opinion that I wish they could tell me it is definitely my eggs or something- I wish they could have told me this months (years?) ago so I can move on to a donor cycle. I have been considering doing a donor cycle even though they don't actually say it is my eggs. I just don't care about genetics. At all. Its just I hesitate to do it b/c my eggs seem fine. I think the plan is that we will do this CGH cycle. If it is a BFN or we get no normals then we know it is something with eggs, we will start researching embryo adoption. There will be no rush anymore because age then isn't really a factor. Then we can maybe one day move forward.

So, the doctor here is forwarding the test results to CCRM and I am expecting to talk to them sometime today. I'll update if it is anything interesting...

7 comments:

Jill M. said...

OMG, soooo frustrating!!! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this unexplained stuff. It's so much easier to be given a diagnosis so at least you can do something about it. Thinking of you... will be watching for your update.

DAVs said...

Wow, you bring up a lot of interesting points here. First of all, I'm sorry the test was basically inconclusive. That stinks.

It's great that you are so completely open to other options, like donor eggs or donor embryos. That means your back up plan is one you are already on board with, which is a great way to be. Does that make sense? I think I could be more on board with a lot of things if we could take finances out of the picture, but we can't...unless we win the lottery, move, or I quit my career to work at Kinkos for the insurance!

I hope the next cycle gives you all the answers you need, and obviously the BFP that turns into the real thing. I'm sorry for all you've been through.

Jill M. said...

Hi Sue, I've been thinking about your situation and was wondering... could they take a blood sample from you and compare your DNA to the DNA they collected previously? If the DNA matched identically, you would know they tested your cells. Just a thought.

MamaSoon said...

Sorry for the news, Sue. You waited a long time and potentially learned nothing. I hope your meeting with ccrm went well. i will be checking for your info on it. I have hashimoto's too. A few other docs said I need to use intralipids or ivig if i have that (even though I don't have high natural killer cells). I think i'll try intralipids (no danger and inexpensive) for my next transfer. :-)

MamaSoon said...

Oh and... happy new year! I hope 2009 brings you the joy you seek.

Polly Gamwich said...

I'm so sorry for the frustrating test results :-(

And not having a diagnosis is also just so frustrating. I think for me one of the hardest things is waiting around after a miscarriage, before you can get back up on the horse ... it's just such a lonely time.

Anyhow, hugs to you.

Rebecca said...

I'm so sorry the test results didn't give you a definitive answer. It's so frustrating not to know and not to be able to make decisions based on clear information. We're in pretty much the same boat. It would be so much easier to move on to donor egg or embryo if we just knew...