Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Guess we learned something.

Okay, so after 7 fresh IVF's and one miserable excuse for a FET, I've finally learned why these things aren't working -I do have crappy eggs. Ironically, no one has ever suggested this to me - I have NEVER gotten that dreaded donor egg speech. But, there it is.

So, yesterday we had 2 biopsied and frozen. Today, they were only able to biopsy and freeze 2 more. The 2 frozen from the prior cycle are out of the game. One was looking unhealthy immediately upon de-frost and the other they aren't sure about but they are going to let it go and look at it again tomorrow. 4 blasts. That is it. And, I am 34 years old. I'm so tired of all this shit.

9 comments:

Sky said...

And I'm tired of this shit for you and I can understand how you might be less than thrilled to start out with that walloping number of eggs and end with 4 blasts. BUT...

Just for reference, when I told CCRM that I will donate all additional embryos from my cycle (likely after having just 1 child), the nurse repeated a couple of times "well, we only accept them for donation if you have at least 6 blasts left over."

So, apparently, that's not even the most common outcome from a donor egg cycle - and those are considered creme de la creme (young eggs from proven chicks who have no infertility issues whatsoever).

With that in mind, 4 good blasts doesn't sound bad at all. I'm still feeling good for you.

Now....are you officially on the 6 week wait for results?

Nikki said...

I'm so sorry Sue. I wish this were easier, and I wish there was something to say to make it better, but there isn't.

I'm just going to hope that those 4 that made it to blast are good blasts, and the results come back normal, and the one from last cycle that they are watching till tomorrow - I hope that does well, and they are able to biopsy it.

Hugs to you - this is hard!

Jill M. said...

Gosh, I was really thinking you would get more. I'm so sorry. Let's hold out hope that you will get a high % of normals. Did they give you the grades?

Hang in there, it's not over. I'm so sorry that you are going to have to wait forever to get the results, just sucks. Hugs!

DAVs said...

Oh Sue. I'm so sorry. I am so sick of all this shit too. It is nothing but shitty suckitude sometimes.

I am so hoping that of the four, 1-2 will be normal and that'll be your baby. I know it's hard to feel hopeful right now. I'm going to offer to hold onto hope for you again right now.

Sending you huge hugs.

Not Your Aunt Bea said...

I'm sorry. I wish I had real, truthful, correct answers for you. To me, ART is always so nebulous. Sending comfort your way. When do you find out about your blasts' genetics?

Nikki said...

BTW - I nominated you for an award. The details are on my blog. Hugs to you again!!

Me said...

I'm sorry.

kayjay said...

So, so sorry that the numbers are just not where you wanted them to be. You're right - this does suck and I don't have any magical words to say to make it all better...but I do know how tired you are of this whole IF thing. It's so ironic that things like this make us feel so old yet we are not. We really aren't. Hang in there...any timeline given for results?

musicmakermomma said...

Sorry you are dealing with this. Hoping for the 4 to be good blasts - you aren't out of the game yet. The whole IF thing is so hard, and so much of it is sitting around waiting to see...good luck.