Sunday, March 1, 2009

Day 3 report

I just talked to the embryologist (after barely sleeping through the night, worrying), and the results are better than I thought (so far, ask me again in 2-3 days!). For now, 6 of the embryos are where they want them to be, 3 are 8 cell 3+, 1 is 10 cell 4-, 1 is 7 cell 3+ and the last is 6 cell 3+. The other 6 are still growing but are slower or are more fragmented. However, last cycle after they transferred 4 on day 3, they said the rest of them would fall into this slow growing/fragmented group but on day 6, they froze 2 of them at 4BB, so I am still holding out hope that a couple of them will be strong enough to make blasts.

Thank you all for your very encouraging comments. I know I sound a little like a princess because I seem to want so many, but the truth is that we always make a good number of embryos and they always look okay and yet still it never works for me (with no answers) so my big fear appears to be this decline starting from the get-go. Hence, I tend to panic at each stage, even though it appears that I am doing fine. So, thank you all for being so kind and not picking on me for being such a drama queen...your comments really do mean ALOT to me!

My mom is still in town so I am kind of off the radar for another day or two, but I can't wait to catch up with everyone in the next few days...and I'll update when I can.


Sky said...

Oh honey, you don't give off the princess vibe at all, truly!

I just tease you that you make so many eggs because I'm openly jealous (tho ridiculously happy for you). And, obviously, you have every right to worry - that's why we're all depositing absurd sums of money into fertility clinics, injecting high doses of scary hormones and holding back tears most of the time.

I'm just trying to cheer you up. I couldn't even get to retrieval after a 2-3 follicle count, which were either empty or contained the shittiest, most fragmented eggs inside anyway, which is why I failed the IUI.

And if you think you're a worrier, wait until it's my turn. I'm going to use a young chippy's eggs and even if she churns out a gorgeous 2 dozen (I wish), I'll still be a friggen wreck every day before the call to the embryologist.

I've said this before. No matter how "positive" a person you are, going through infertility treatments (particularly when you have to fund them out of pocket) will absolutely smack you down to life's realities. When you get handed so much negativity, crap and bad news (which is so inherent with infertility issues), you actually start thinking the very ugly and wondering if it will ever work.

That's why you need more objective buddies to remind you that, yes, it does work and will work and you're going to be just fine. I can't wait until you're even past CGH so I can breathe a sigh of relief WITH you and follow you through your BFP with a popcorn bowl on my lap, watching this great adventure unfold.

Kris said...

Great fert report! I can't wait to hear your results. You don't sound like a princess with drama at all!! You sound pefectly normal and healthy and just like the rest of us infertiles. Hang in there! I am excited to be walking by your side and cheering you on!

momsoon said...

After a busy weekend I finally had to steal a moment to check in and hear your news--what an awesome fert. report!!! Wow!!!!!

Nope, no 'princess', just sounds like the thoughts of a
gal-with-fertility-challenges-in- her- past (we all sound the same I am concluding)...

I know how hard it is to believe that good things are happening and all the 'what if's' def. rob us of trusting (and sleep!!).

You have done amazingly well and I know that one/two/three of those growing embryos will be your long awaited son/daughter!!!

I can't wait to read on (keep blowing off those worries here to us) until that day, meantime reminding you:

Jill M. said...

Looking good!!! I don't think anyone can go through IVF and not hope for better results... we always want more eggs, or better quality, or more blasts, or more normals. We all know how fast things can go from great to disaster at each stage, so the more we start off with, the better our chances. You don't come off as a princess or drama queen at all.

Keep us posted!

DAVs said...

I'm so glad you got such a good report! Don't worry, you don't sound like a princess. Who among us doesn't want more more better better when dealing with IVF??
Rest up and enjoy yourself some during your wait time!

kayjay said...

You are not a drama queen, just being a realist because we all know that we are playing a numbers game with this IVF. We're all searching for that golden egg and the more you have, the better chances you have right? Enjoy time with your Mom and being back at home but keep us posted on the Day 5 fert report! Congrats on the good numbers!

Not Your Aunt Bea said...

Hope you get lots of good blasts! And I don't think you sound like a princess.

MamaSoon said...

You are so not the princess type. I don't see why you shouldn't have enough 'normal' blasts to get you all the kids you ever dreamt of. DREAM BIG, SUE! I am rooting for you.

Nikki said...

Everyone has already said it, but I will say it too. You are not the princess types - you're just dealing with so much, and anyone in your shoes (we've all been there) wants as much reassurance as she can get, and some more!

6 sounds great, and I'm sure the magic lab there will manage to grow a few more! Hang in there. Good luck!

Anonymous said...

You totally do not give off the Princess attitude. Look at ALL YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH. Literally, this is your 7th cycle. Anyway, I am glad things are progressing along nicely. Your embryos are doing great. Can't wait for your next update!

Anonymous said...

hang in there! I agree with everyone else, you are doing great, no need for apologies, you have been through the ringer and it is tough, so you are entitled to say/do/feel whatever you need to get to the next step.

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