Thirty Five?

I turn thirty five tomorrow. Ugh. Years ago, when we first started this IF thing, we thought we'd be on baby number 2 by now. But, over time, our goals change and so far, so good, we've met our revised goal - I am pregnant by my 35th birthday. I know a lot of women are older than this and still getting pregnant and I know I will be back at it- doing more retrievals as soon as possible so we can have siblings at 36 or 37 or 38....40. What I've learned through this whole IF thing is to be flexible:-) But, 35!!??! Once you've had a hard time getting pregnant and seek out an RE you learn...35 is the fertility cliff. I'm falling off. But, I've also learned that Brett and I are super-strong together and can get through anything...and I've learned that IVF does work and really isn't all that bad (its the losses that are bad)...I've learned what I want in life and to not rest until I get it or get too tired to fight for it anymore. So, tomorrow is going to be a happy day. 35 and pregnant.

We have no real plans. I have been pretty sick lately and spend about 75% of my day trying not to throw up. The funny this is that I spend most of that time thinking about food and thinking about food makes me sick. There isn't a damn thing that I want to eat but my stomach hurts A LOT when I don't eat and then once I eat, I start this awful burping thing that turns into dry heaves and I'm convinced I'll vomit but my body has other plans. Apparently once the calories go in, my body absolutely refuses to let them back out. So, I've lost about 4 lbs and am barely 7 weeks pregnant. I'm working on a system. Hopefully I figure something out. About tomororw-my mom invited us over for a BBQ, but what can I eat? I'm also totally unsociable at night b/c I'm so tired. So, I just called her and changed it to a breakfast for my bday:-) Also - found something cool at the grocery store- Betty Crocker came out with Gluten Free baking mixes! So, Brett is making me a cake tomorrow (pray the kitchen doesn't burn down)! I'm sick of being totally high maintenance in the food department with all this gluten free stuff, but it seems to be doing the trick. At some point in the next week I'll write an informative post about GF and issues and stuff since I've had a lot of questions.

How cool is this? I see cakeballs in my future....!

Oh and, by the way, I am NOT complaining about the sickness. Part of me asked for it. When I first found out I was pregnant I thought "I hope I get a little m/s just so I can be oddly reassured that the baby is still growing and wreaking havoc"...well apparently the powers that be did not hear the "little" qualifier I put on that...but I will not complain at all. I know that my HCG levels are high and something is going on in there for now. So, bring it on:-)

What a great birthday gift.