Last ultrasound at old RE's office!!!

It was great! I was in an absolute panic. The next two weeks are going to be the scariest time for me, I think. I know the last two nights I've been waking up in the middle of the night and getting nervous about the ultrasound but this morning I was feeling okay until we got into the ultrasound room. Then my blood pressure went a little high and I started freaking out. When the nurse came in, I had to tell her that I was shaking b/c I was so scared of the ultrasound machine! But she agreed that when you've seen a heartbeat one week and the following week, you walk into the room thinking you will see it again, and there is no heartbeat, it is scarring. She said I will probably always feel that way about ultrasounds. But, on to the good news...and more pics. The nurse (who was different this week and was very nice) said that we'd get right to it so that we can put me more at ease...well, in goes the wand, and immediately, there is our sweet little baby...and it's heartbeat! We poked around looking at its head and little arm and leg buds...which were moving! Then we got to hear the heartbeat and measure it, which was at a nice, strong 167 bpm! So, everything went well. I went from shaking in fear to crying with relief. I've literally spent the last few weeks pretending that I am not pregnant so that I can get through this trimester...and today, for the first time, I actually felt some hope and relief. So, here are some pictures:
This one is a little blurry, but we were actually able to see the little head and little arm and leg buds in this image while it was on the screen.

Here is the heartbeat one. It is further away but shows the cute little body in the sac and the beautiful hb!

That was my last u/s at the local RE's office! I'm sure I will have at least one more blood test there as CCRM tries to wean me off of the estrogen and progesterone, but I have my first appointment at the OB's office on Monday! This is great news...but is also scary. This is the exact appointment that I found out the bad news last time I was pregnant- our first appointment at the OB's office. Last time it was slighly later - about 9 weeks and 3 days when this time we will be there at 9 weeks 1 day, but it is still a very anxious time for me. Luckily, we changed OB's offices since the other one had some odd practices and both Brett and I were uncomfortable with how they handled things. So, a fresh start! Hopefully a totally different result!

On another note, this week marks my estimated due date for that pregnancy. The due date was July 9th. I've never really been one to dwell on this and make much of it, but this time feels different...we had already gotten far enough to really feel this was a viable pregnancy...and I had already pictured myself huge and hot in the July weather...so I am very thankful that I am pregnant again and have some hope as this week comes and goes, but I am sad to think of what could have been and the baby that was almost ours.