Vivelle, Check!

AF finally arrived on Saturday morning at 2:30 AM. Of course my nurse said Friday is the last day but she may be able to stretch me to Saturday and still keep my date, so I was freaking out. Friday morning I had spotting (and I NEVER spot) so, of course, I cheered the arrival of AF. Then nothing. So, I jumped up and down a bunch, lol. Drank strong ginger tea, went for a run. Um, other stuff to try to get her to come on. Then I called the nurse. She asked me when I thought I'd get my period. I said any minute, or sometime overnight. She told me that if I get her anytime before bed that I should consider it CD1 and start Vivelle patches on Sunday (CD 3), but if I got AF after bedtime and any time before Saturday bedtime, to consider Saturday CD 1 and start the patches on Monday. I was a mess. Finally I woke up at 2:30 Saturday morning with horrible cramps, got up, read a book and by the time I went back to sleep, I had full flow. So, I started the patches this morning and we are still shooting for a May 29 FET date. Whew. AF arrived on the last day possible...but at least she arrived!

So, I'm starting to get excited about our trip and the FET. We are still thinking we are going to drive down to CO and make a little road trip/vaca out of it. So, I will start scheduling and planning as soon as I talk to my nurse today because that would mean that we are leaving in almost exactly 2 weeks!!! Our first leg of the trip will be down to visit Gettysburg, PA and visit with friends there. Brett and I have driven across the country several times to move coasts and each time we've been in a mad rush to get to the other coast so have never stopped to sight-see and since we have some time, we are going to sight see this time! (well, once I stopped to see Mount Rushmore but that was the one trip where Brett wasn't with me - he was already in WA waiting for me to arrive with all my stuff!).

I am nervous, of course, about the results of this FET. The CGH/microarray testing has gotten such great results. The success rates are unbelievable. It makes the fear of failure that much more distinct. Last night, Brett voiced concerns about what if this is a BFN. We haven't really been considering it and we sort-of have a plan in place, but I think we will both be so confused if it is. That is the scary part. And then my fear kicks in that we will get a beautiful BFP and I will miscarray again. I think I'll be freaking out at every single ultrasound....and that isn't much fun. So, I've been trying to not think about it. Just trying to stay positive and think that I've gotten pregnant before so we know I can, the embryos are normal (well, 90% sure they are normal) so the chance of me m/c'ing is smaller, and at the end of it all - what choice do we have? We either go forward and try or we give up. So, here we go...

What a week (end).

I haven't posted because I have very little good to say! Just to give you a hint of what has been going on around here. Brett has shingles. Monday night he started hurting, thinking he pulled a muscle in his back over the weekend. Tuesday he came home from a business trip and I gave him a back massage- trying to work out this knot he thought he had. Wednesday morning, we noticed a rash where the knot was. By Wednesday night the pain had become shooting pains that advil wasn't helping. I could feel him physically jump when the pain would shoot through this back and to his chest. By Thursday I was contacting our PCP to tell them he has shingles (nice that I self diagnose, right) and contacting Brett's sis who is a doctor b/c he was insisting that it wasn't shingles and he'd be fine. By Thursday night I got him to the PCP- yup, shingles. So, now he's on meds- but the only pain med they gave him is a patch that you stick on to locally numb the area and he is horribly allergic to it - gave him another rash (in the exact square shape of the patch) so the poor guy is in serious pain. Oh, and yes, being the panicked person I am, I called CCRM and they said that I am fine to move forward as long as I don't have shingles. (it isn't contagious - well, he can give chicken pox to someone if they touch the rash, but I've already had that and I can't actually catch shingles from him). So, that was fun.

We have a dead mouse (or mice) in the ceiling above our small bathroom downstairs. I know this b/c it STINKS! I've heard mice in the walls on occasion - they've never made it into the house but there is evidence of them in the connected garage and I've found where they've been entering the wall from the garage to the family room, where I hear them sometimes. We've caught a few here and there in traps (sorry - I hate to hurt any living thing, but what else can you do?). And, yes, we did the stupid thing and put out a small packet of poison after we found a nest in the garage and they weren't getting caught in the traps. (at first I thought this was a stupid idea- and it is- but then I thought about it and when we lived in MA, the house had mice when we moved in and we called an exterminator before we moved in and all they did was put out poison - so we did it). Well, now it stinks! And, it is getting worse...not sure how long it will take to decompose or how many flies we are going to see in the next few weeks. All I know is that the door to that bathroom stays closed and I light a lot of candles and freak out all day and night about this situation. I HATE IT. I love our home and I am pissed that it smells bad and we can't be comfortable and safe in our own home. I'm serious- you can't smell it on the floor that our bedroom is on, but I can't sleep because of this. (I say the floor our bedroom is on instead of what floor b/c we have an oddly shaped split level and it technically has at least 3 floors and the dead mouse is in the ceiling of the first floor, the bedroom is on the 3rd, but that makes our house sound huge and it's not- just normal sized.).

There has been other stuff going on but most of it isn't worth mentioning too much. I am now on AF-alert. I usually get her on day 26 but we estimated her for day 31 b/c of the lupron. Today is day 27, so any day now....hopefully by Friday/Saturday, but the sooner the better. Oh, and I think I hate facebook. Oh well.